unrecognizable

/ˌənˌrekə(ɡ)ˈnīzəb(ə)l/

adjective

not able to be recognized or identified

Life has not been what I imagined it to be. The moment I entered this world, I have been on this rollercoaster that I cannot seem to get off of. This rollercoaster is nothing but twists and turns and I am to the point where I feel sick to my stomach. I took at the operator in hopes that they will stop it, but all I see is black; not a face to be had. I feel them looking into my soul, but I will never know if that is the truth. The longer I sit on this ride, the more I continue to hope and pray that it will somehow end; I feel as if that dream is not going to become a reality anytime soon. On this ride, I talk to myself a lot in my head. The thoughts come out so clear, but attempting to actually get the thoughts out of my mouth is difficult. The only being around me is the operator and I don't know if they will ever listen if I were able to speak. Would they try and help me or would they leave me here to suffer? It continues to be one of life's burning questions.